Today..

So today I got off track with my eating which is both frustrating and scary at the same time. I'm not sure what exactly lead me to it, but I do know that this was bound to happen at some point. As much as I hate it, I'm trying to look at it as a positive experience...I know I know...that's so annoying to hear, and to do..but it's the truth. At least now I know that I can get back on track when things are rough. But dammit this won't become a pattern if I have anything to say about it!
I used to love the feeling of starving, the emptiness, now I find it completely repulsive along with the horrible memories that go along with it.
So anyways in saying all of this what I hope you...probably the one person who actually reads this shit....will take away from this is that even if your strugalling, try not to look at it as such a negative..you can pull yourself back on track and learn from the experience.

Links

here are some improtant links I thought I'd post...Anyone looking to support a loved one or just curious take a look!

http://www.nationaleatingdisorders.org


http://www.eatingdisordersanonymous.org/


http://www.eatingdisorderrecovery.com/

Growing up, again..

When we are growing up we are greatly influenced by those around us. Our habits, whatever they may be are almost wholly formed during childhood. We learn our behavior through imitation of our parents, our siblings, and our peer groups. However we can learn to undo habits that our unhealthy. The choice to create new patterns of behavior is ours to make if we want to. However, parting with old patterns and habits in order to make way for new ones takes time commitment and determination.
Each one of us working towards recovery has broken away from old patterns. We have chosen to leave detrimental t substances alone. We have chosen to leave unhealthy relationships. And, we have the daily choosing to move beyond our own shortcomings. Although not every day is a successful one because our shortcomings have been ingrained since childhood, we can move beyond this and choose again the next day.
And, although years of lying, feeling fearful, procrastinating, and restricting, binging and purging beckon to us; the very habit(s) itself inviting us. We must choose. We can find strength in recovery and in one another to let go of the behavior that stands in the way of today’s happiness. We can find in one another a better, healthier behavior to imitate. We can grow up again amidst the good habits of others, and ourselves.

Quote: “One has to grow up with good talk in order to form the habit of it”.
- Helen Hayes

What do you find most motivating?

What do you find most motivating?

-well definately the other girls (including you)...and my baby brother

-the hope that maybe, someday, things will get better?

-everything people have said above plus the song Mirror - its amazing

-the most motivational thing for me is those rare moments in the day when the old, healthy mind returns and i am not focused on food or numbers, just laughing and enjoying the moment for what it is

Motivation for the Day:)

"What does your post treatment life look like right now"?
Thanks for the response(s):)Keep um coming..

-I'm in college...getting a's and b's. im a star on the rowing team at one of the best sports schools in the country. im training for the us national team. im in the best physical shape of my life. and not because of ed. i feel alive again. i have my life back. my eating disorder has really moved to the very back of my head which is amazing to believe after 6 years with it. i can't believe how good it feels to worry about other things than food and at this point in my life right now i can't imagine ever wanting to go back.


-My post-treatment life, hmp. As obvious and cliche as it sounds, no road to recovery is ever smooth, but rather bumpy. For the most part, I've learned alot about myself and how I deal with difficult situations, and I feel as if I'm just an all around better person because of it. My relationships with others are stronger, considering I'm no longer just focus on my symptoms, which in the end makes me happier in general. As of now I'm finishing highschool, planning for college, and just working on my future. These things seemed impossible and terrifying, and trust me they still do, but I'm able to handle them better and actually confront issues that I'm faced with rather than running away from them.

-my dream to go to nursing school, graduate and work in an eating disorder rehab facility to give other girls the same chance that erin and jenny gave me...

End Fat Talk

Here is the new end fat talk video for all those who have not yet seen it


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4CuMJybvAh8

thoughts...?